The internet hasn't been working for the past 4 days now. Its kind of getting irritating, and its been a long time since I wrote. Ive been in my boxers and my t-shirt since morning, or afternoon I should say. Ive been watching old movies, listening to old music and just lazing around. Its that kind of a wednesday which has this boring Sunday kind of a vibe. Im just going to get ready to go for dinner in sometime, which I'm not really looking forward to, but its chinese so I guess it should work fine. For now.
12th has already started to take its toll. Its getting frustrating. You study for long hours and still don't get good marks. Teachers try their best to humiliate you in class and make sure that your morale goes down. So I guess thats what I get for being a nice but maybe bit of a smart/sneeky child. My history teacher thinks that all I do in school is roam around and flirt with girls (which maybe kind of true) and Im sure most girls think I'm gay. Well as I told another girl, there are TWO very very valid reasons I spend time/interact with girls. Do I need to make it more obvious? And the reason behind me talking to a lot of girls is maybe because Im in humanities which has a majority of girls and maybe because I'm single. So just confirming - Im not gay, I love seeing women. I am sexually aroused towards women and I do not sit at night and watch gay porn when no one else is watching - my private history is a testament to that. On another tangent - my mom kind of knows that I drink, which is sad and good at the same time. Medically I cant drink, but I still do coz I'm a badass (that is meant to be a joke) and my parents go crazy when it comes to all that shit. But then suddenly my mom tells me today that she may know that I drink, so that was kind of comforting also.
Ive suddenly starting to like the whole idea of being a hippie and roaming around the world. It started with roaming all around the world and then came down the ideas of a hippie considering it involves getting high as well. :P And dreadlocks - one day, when I really become thin and go to college somewhere outside - I SHALL TRY TO KEEP DREADLOCKS! And tattoos as well. All over my hands! I've already come up with ideas for a full sleeve on both the right and left hand. I met this girl in school whose in 10th. She's one of the best artists I've seen in a LONG time! She likes to listen to Metal and Hard Rock and all that crazy shit! And she is fascinated by the whole idea of getting high. So the knowledge that I acquired because of the internet kind of helped me spend some time with her. And its kind of really cool, at least Im working on something. Ive been cordially talking to K for more than 2 weeks now which is really really good. And its kind of cool how things aren't getting awkward and were back to talking about lame stuff and kind of talking how emotional stuff sucks balls. :P On the other hand, I cant get over the fact that N loves Ne, maybe because I still have some feelings for N and maybe because she thinks of me as a really good friend and shares almost everything with me.
Yeah, I guess thats whats new - for now. Weekly tests, TOEFL on the 25th, Half Yearlies from the 15th of September. Time to study, A LOT. (Sigh)
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